[Gunvolt remains quiet for a long moment, his eyes... distant. Looking far way to a horizon he couldn't see. His mind busy trying to process what she said and reconcile it with everything he already knew. And it wasn't easy to do.
He blinked twice, slowly, before he broke his silence.]
...What I've wanted is that. As a way of showing appreciation for Asimov giving me a chance when no one else did. They aren't the only things I can do, but... designing equipment, making runes, and now fighting. It's... what I'm best at. And I can be better. So I do my best to improve, so I can make him, and myself, proud.
So... I really haven't spent a lot of time thinking about how I should enjoy today.
[Not when so much of his thinking is about the future.]
How do I even find the balance, Nana? I can't give up on my goals, but... I know you're not wrong either. I enjoyed going to the dance before and after the fighting, and I liked Yuya teaching me how to dance before that, and... hell, even arguing with Maple's been... well, maybe not fun, but...
I just don't know how to find the line of being me... and trying to be what I want to become.
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Date: 2019-02-27 05:08 am (UTC)He blinked twice, slowly, before he broke his silence.]
...What I've wanted is that. As a way of showing appreciation for Asimov giving me a chance when no one else did. They aren't the only things I can do, but... designing equipment, making runes, and now fighting. It's... what I'm best at. And I can be better. So I do my best to improve, so I can make him, and myself, proud.
So... I really haven't spent a lot of time thinking about how I should enjoy today.
[Not when so much of his thinking is about the future.]
How do I even find the balance, Nana? I can't give up on my goals, but... I know you're not wrong either. I enjoyed going to the dance before and after the fighting, and I liked Yuya teaching me how to dance before that, and... hell, even arguing with Maple's been... well, maybe not fun, but...
I just don't know how to find the line of being me... and trying to be what I want to become.