Mm... yeah. And the answer is different, I think, for everyone. Different ideas of who we should be, different comfort levels... different hopes for the future. But it's there. Somewhere.

[Which might be the closest she'll come today to admitting she hasn't found it herself.

She shakes her head, though, and her smile is as reassuring as she can make it.]

It's okay.

I think... all of us grapple with this, or something close.