IC Inbox: Daybreak

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GUSTAV "GV" GUNVOLT
UN: AZURESTRIKER

STATUS: Student, Grade 9

ACCOLADES: 4 Year Member of the Rune Guild QUILL, active field agent and runic inscriptionist. Designed and implemented runic equipment for field use. Destroyed a small army of invading undead.

BIO: New to Daybreak Academy. I speak Japanese, German, French, and English. Japanese is a little rusty though. Interests include runic inscription, athletics, physics, and history. I like video games and computers too.

© TESSISAMESS

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[Nana recognizes that distant look. She knows that distant look; she's seen it on herself before, imagined it as the look on her face. She hesitates, in the face of that, her eyes drifting away from his.

She swallows.

A part of her wants to scream that she's not the person he should ask. That she doesn't know how to find and define the line between who she is and who she's afraid she'll become, to keep everyone safe.

But he's asking, and Nana doesn't know how to -- and doesn't want to -- turn him away.]

It's hard to maintain that balance, GV. You... you have to find a way to fit both into your life. To know when to turn one side off, and let yourself be who you need to be.

I wish I could say it's easy, but... it's not.

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[Her words, mercifully, seemingly make his eyes snap back into the present. It took a quick blink, almost like he snapped out of a trance.]

...Yeah. It's not. But the answer's gotta be there. And you're right. I have to try... even if I can be the only one to do it.

[He weakly smiled, looking embarrassed.]

...Sorry, that got a lot heavier than I meant it to. I've... never talked about that with anyone before.

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Mm... yeah. And the answer is different, I think, for everyone. Different ideas of who we should be, different comfort levels... different hopes for the future. But it's there. Somewhere.

[Which might be the closest she'll come today to admitting she hasn't found it herself.

She shakes her head, though, and her smile is as reassuring as she can make it.]

It's okay.

I think... all of us grapple with this, or something close.

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It's a relief to hear that, strange as it is to say. Knowing it's something that we're all trying to work through... I dunno. Less scary, I guess.

[Still confusing, still challenging, and still a burden they all have to bear, but... a burden shared is easier to lift. But perhaps... not as daunting as it once felt.]

...Thanks, Nana. You're the best.

[And there's just an earnest sincerity to the statement, reflected in those blue eyes.]

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I definitely understand that. [Nana smiles, though it's a little reluctant. She wishes people didn't have to experience that burden. She can't say she's glad she's not alone, there.

She wishes they didn't have to feel it.

She blinks, though -- a bit surprised at the earnestness and the statement. Then, Nana smiles, and looks down for a moment.]

...Thanks. You're welcome, GV.